Life's Not So Serious

Whimsy meditating skeleton purchased at Micheal's craft store and photographed in the NC mountains.

Delving into to boredom with purposeful intent yesterday was good for my soul, even if it didn't yield any extra pages of my novel completed. It didn't even provide me a burst of freedom to stop being so excited about the scale. I still did the happy dance and cheered when I hopped on the scale to see a loss later in the evening. This tells me that I am way to invested in the scale weighing in on my progress, no matter how much I wish it to not be, I do give it priority in determining whether my progress is "good" or "bad". I still have a ways to go to get away from that mindset. Celebrating non-scale victories is something I would like to do more frequently. Maybe creating a reward system. There are new piercings I would like to get. Maybe this can be tied to my goal of losing nearly 100 pounds. Ultimately, what do these numbers truly matter in the scheme of the world? I am blessed to have food, water, shelter, lack of a war zone, relative safety, a job, money in the bank, no gambling, drinking problems, health concerns that are improving and under control, and I really, truly can go on. It is important to take the time each day to count our blessings and keep a heart full of gratitude; it is good for the soul and puts life into perspective. Vasculitis helped me to develop a daily practice of gratitude; even when I feel dumpy and am taking life more seriously than I ought to. So I am a little under 100 pounds over weight. So I have more lines on my face and am battling the hot breath of menopause with fierce hot flashes and mood swings. It isn't as bleak as I somethings think it is, when I am isolated and feel trapped (suffering from boredom) in my own bobbing, floating bubble. Another life lesson. It seems I'm full of them. The trick is to remember them. To apply them to each day. That is the new lesson I am striving to master. So. In this mindset, it may not help to think of myself as 642 years old and weighing 14 pounds, but it sure does make me smile at the absurdity and I don't take life quite so seriously...at least for the a moment.

Walk in absurdity and gratitude today + continue to be excellent, my good peeps.

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