Life

Life. It hasn't been anything close to the plastic car full of pink and blue formless pegs plunked around a topsy turvy, colorful game board these days-or ever. The only similarity to my non plastic day to day is the bi-weekly anticipation of pay day.

Lately, I've put most things on hold for work. I've been the job. I've stopped and started writing projects. I've stopped and started workout programs. For about a month and a half, I was walking close to 10,000 steps a day. I'm finally off the daily chemo pills and seem to be adjusting to the new maintenance medication fairly well. I've managed to keep off the 6 pounds I lost this year. However, I am still 10 pounds away from my revamped October goals. That would mean losing 10 pounds in one month. Yikes. With the past year as guide, it is a dubious and lofty idea. Yet, there are inklings that I might get close. I have a renewed motivation and drive. I refuse to give into the excuse that December is a busy, stressful time to enjoy the holidays so I can unhinge my jaw and vacuum in all things frosted and high carbs. Nope. Not acceptable. Even today's high stress day didn't send me running home to cram my gullet full of delivery pizza. Instead, I stopped at Char Hut and picked up a grilled chicken pita and a baked sweet potato for dinner. For dessert, I enjoyed my new favorite treat: Dove dark chocolate raspberry sorbet bar. 150 calories of bliss. To not stress eat after a day as insane as today was is a HUGE non-scale victory.

I am still recovering from a nasty chest cold so I haven't been working out the last 2-3 weeks. Yet, I forgive myself for this because I know it is important to listen to my body and allow it to fully heal. Since I am feeling better and more energetic, the plan is to add workouts back in next week. Maybe I'll just aim for 3 workouts the first week and build to 5 the following week. There is nothing wrong with a slow climb back to aiming for 7 workouts a week again. Perhaps I'll even end this week with some light walking and yoga. I'll just keep listening to my body and see how I feel. I do believe I have become adept at balancing when and how to push myself with when to pause in gentleness.

I'm doubtful I will actually lose 10 pounds by January 1st, however, I will be sure to return back to this space for weekly accountability. I am committed to do this again, even though it is the "busy" time of year so I can check in and share how I am navigating this kooky, twisted game board of Life, trying to enjoy the journey of covering as many colored squares as I can.

May you walk in beauty and peace and find your bliss.

Mahalo~

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