All Apologies

It's been far too long since my last post.

I'm so sorry.

I'm fairly certain that any following has long since been gone. However, the photo accompanying this post is my excuse. This was from December 16, 2018. When I was at Starbucks with my brother. Reading. Writing. This photo is PRE-vacation. There was shopping and baking left to complete. This pictures feels like it was from forever ago, not just 15 days ago.

I have other pictures without words in my draft folder. One of a chocolate glazed donut, when I contemplated if I TRULY wanted to eat a donut and put the nutritional prize tag on it. That post was going to be about restarting the Weight Watchers (or WW) program (which I did at the end of November).

The french toast breakfast that I love to make on weekends is another post that never got written or posted. I also have not made french toast since then (December 14, 2018, to be exact).

Life has a way of happening, in spite of the plans. Life gets _________________. What? Complicated? Busy? Messy? Real? Stressful? Maybe the same adjectives can be used for the holidays. All the goals and plans are shoved into the corner and told to be quiet, while we shop, and consume too much sugar, caffeine and not enough water. And next thing, it's the brink of New Year's Eve. I have no business scratching my head and wondering where the time went and what to I have to show for another year? By this time, I am humming John Lennon and am no closer to fixing the time management issue that seems to have always plagued me, my writing, and my busy, complicated, stressful, messy life.

I would love to write that I am committed to the blog and promise/ vow/ resolve to write 3 entries a week. That's a nice sentiment. It is a goal I will be able to achieve while on vacation. It's when work resumes and I get thrown back into the grind. What then? Another broken promise/resolution? Sigh.

So, I'm back to mindfulness. Priorities. Simplicity. Breath. Everything seems to work more efficiently (and yes, dare I say it? better) when I keep it simple (stupid---K.I.S.S. --- not the Shout it Out Loud variety) when I am keeping it simple.

Rather than promise that I will show up with any regularity at all, which I plan to do so, yet by my own entries and admission, that may or may not be enough to make it a habit, I commit to mindfulness. Daily breath. Equanimity. And making sure my ass cheeks make time to connect with the meditation cushion.

We are all full of resolve and determination right now, when this idea seems good and our culture dictates we partake in such things. Let's see where we all are in February.

*Feel free to share YOUR resolutions, goals and personal vows for 2019. I am always happy to hear from anyone who may be reading.

Happy New Year!